Interview with AG
- tamarfiss
- May 18, 2019
- 3 min read
Updated: Oct 26, 2019
18-5-19
AG M 8 m in London
A is experiencing feelings of lost her independence and unfulfillment from the career path she has chosen together with loss of confidence with not being fluent with the language and being far from her family and friends cause her distress and anxiety.
She started going to Therapy and to get involved in activism in her matter of living -
Few weeks after starting her Therapy, she already sees improvement in her feeling and hopes it will continue that way.
She was feeling uncertain about her career even before the move, and once they moved, she went to some job interviews but was rejected from them all.
So she decided to do some volunteer work, as part of gaining experience in her field (she is an animator, video creator, editor and director)
10-7-19
Sight
I love this photo of myself standing in front of the sea. It was taken during a beautiful period in my life when I spend a month in Um beach in India. This photo represents this period when I experience freedom, non-judgmental and released from judging my body image, which I usually experience a lot since I have body image low self-esteem difficulties.
The second photo I took a few days before my grandmother passed away. In this photo we see my mums hand gently and lovingly holding my grandmother's hand that was in a lot of pain in that time. This was a very difficult time for my family, and especially for me, since I couldn't contain the whole situation even thus I was 25 years old, it was heartbreaking for me to see my grandmother in this state. I hardly visited her around this time and I deeply regret that.
Translated and added the photos 26/10/19
Smell
GOOD
I love this exercise! it makes me think about the smells I like and why do I like them.
I love the smell of gas, petrol. I love to smell petrol station, it makes me feel good, I know there are many people that disgusted by this smell. This smell gives me a strange feeling that I like.
So we talked about it a little bit - for me who's not much of a driver so for me it can be the smell of adventure, it's a quiet, peaceful moment before going outside the city, road trip, but for A she doesn't really understand where it comes from, it usually turned on her taste buds as well (TF)
I also love the smell of fresh wall paint, I remember when I was a young girl, I wanted to lick the walls, and when I felt my taste buds turned on by this as well.
I read about this phenomena in connotation of small kids and dogs, that it means sometimes that they have a lack of calcium in their bones (TF).
BAD
The smell of rotten eggs make me sick and gives me a feeling of disgust and nauseous.
Smell of hospitals makes me want to run away.
I think the worst one is the smell of bleach in retirement homes, I wonder if it related to the thought of death and clean together (TF)
Sound
Songs/music that make me feel good:
https://youtu.be/5-P65Vh_2bs
This is song #7 from the first chapter Tehillim book (bible). Every time I hear this song I get very excited, it makes my heart explode, I love this song.
https://youtu.be/pZS54u1Aw5E
I used to listen a lot to this song when I was 15. This song brings a lot of frustration but also a lot of release from social criticism I have experienced during these days. This song preserve this period, this difficult time in my life.
https://youtu.be/-bHAKMFXIQU
This song is very emotional to me and gives me a shiver every time I listen to it. I use to listen to it a lot when I was a teenager, I remember this time in my life to be very complicated, a lot of rebalance, drugs and difficulties.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XblKiQkmA2I&list=PLA0710EE0B408D658&index=10
This song give me a chill and do a lot of thinking. I love this song very much, especially the story it tells about Lily a girl who's actually a vampire. Base on a story by Shay Agnon.
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